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Oct. 13th, 2005 | 09:20 am

I've been fighting this cold for the past 2 weeks. I was starting to get over it, and then more people at work got sick. Why can't anyone just stay home? They're all bitching and complaining how it was my fault, but they're the ones who made me go into work.

Hm, let's see...
People who need to get the last word in for everything...tad bit annoying. If two people are arguing, and nothing is resolved, it's only going to get worse if you MUST try and prove your point. Just stop talking, wait for another time where the two of you can talk in a civil manner. I've had this problem a lot lately. I just stopped bothering with it. If it gets down to the point where it's 'I'm right, you're wrong', fuck it. We all know who the child is...

I really don't like being thrown into the middle of anything. I don't like when people VOLUNTEER me to do whatever it is they're doing, just so they can have a fucking ride...and I certainly don't like the fact that if nobody can figure anything out, it's always brought back down on me. I'm not your fucking mother, think for yourself. I've been trying to be nice about everything, but there's only so much I could do to keep my mouth shut. If you're arguing with someone, leave my name out of your mouth, and if you have a problem, fucking bring it to me.

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Sep. 26th, 2005 | 10:42 am

Gah, I've missed Pookie. I'm glad he's back, and he's staying down here for good. Gabe is another person I miss. I'll see you on the 8th, and hang out with you as much as possible. We have some catching up to do.

Yesterday was one of those days where you feel extremely weird, and don't know why. The whole fucking day was like that. Marvin and I had went over to Wilton Manors, got something to eat...headed back and just talked the whole time. I ended up bringing up a lot of stuff from the past, and recent issues...and it had me thinking the whole damn night. It's been hard trying to get a decent nights sleep.

Switching to private mode.

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Sep. 16th, 2005 | 10:30 am

Work is quite boring today. I woke up thinking it was Wednesday, wtf? Maybe it was because I missed work on Monday. Why do they always play that gay Marc Anthony song on the radio around this time? Ridiculous. I think I'm gonna end up going to the game, again. I didn't want to, but Mayra and Melissa want to go. Good, they can drive. I'm not driving all the way to Western. I'm definitely going on Saturday to support Adam, and Metal Reign. Tons of people are going, so I've heard. It will just be one big reunion. Not much to say, not much on my mind...Thank the lord.

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Aug. 14th, 2005 | 08:23 pm
mood: tiredtired
music: Nickelback-Figured You Out

I just woke up from a nap and my head is STILL throbbing. No medicine is good enough...Well, maybe one thing, but I have yet to go get it. I didn't really sleep much. I think it was around 5:45 or 6 when I went to bed, then I woke up early and went with Gabe to the Marlins game...And holy fucking shit I'm burnt! My arms are killing me...And this aloe I have, sucks...Argh it's getting late now. I'm sitting here by myself watching 'IT'...Whatta loser. I'm missing someone dearly right now. She must finish her work though. Well, I was told to write a 'pleasant' entry..but I'm not necessarily in a pleasant mood...but hmm, let me try...Awr, I don't know what to say...Umm, I love you all? No really, I do. All of you...Well, the only 3 who read this bull-ISH. Everyone else can go fuck themselves.

I L-O-V-E Y-O-U, to you, you...and especially you

"I love my hands around your neck"

Ok, nap time.

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Aug. 7th, 2005 | 11:13 pm
mood: blankblank

...Why do I feel so empty when she leaves? I have nothing else to say besides that. I'm just extremely lost right now. So, goodnight.

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Aug. 7th, 2005 | 12:58 pm
mood: busy
music: Pantera-Walk

I forgot to pay my phone bill AND credit card bill. What is wrong with me?! These past few weeks have been nuts. I can't focus on anything, so it seems. It's the end of the summer, boo to that...Not like I had a summer anyways, but...yea. Hopefully I'll still get to see Lady as much. We went to Dairy Queen last night, and Mike kept staring at her, so I gave him the evil eye, which a lot of people are oh so familiar with. HE JUST SMILED THOUGH! I was like oh hell no...Hmmm. Next time I'll just rip his nuts off and shove them down his throat...That sounds like a plan. Ok, I gotta go pay my damn phone bill, then head out to mom's. I'll write in this shiza later.

Hiiii Laaaady. =)

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Aug. 4th, 2005 | 08:53 am
mood: draineddrained

What a horrible night it was. Turns out I wasn't the only one that had one...Poor Gabe. I wish his mother would just leave him the fuck alone. He has to deal with so much shit, and he's such a great person all around. Her bitching is just so futile. So yea, I give up. These crazy people are just in love with me...Amy totally wigged out last night. She was initially supposed to go out last night, but changed her mind once she saw me and talked to me. I really wish she would have left though. She kept coming into my room every 5 minutes to see what the hell I was doing, or see who I was talking to. I even went outside for 5 minutes to calm down and there she was, checking up to see what I was doing. I couldn't take being at the house anymore so I drove around for a bit, then there she goes calling again asking where I am. I was so stressed out last night and I really just did not want to be there. I had no choice though. I can't handle all of those emotions at once...She was just crying her eyes out, and just screaming and yelling. Why can't she just make up her mind as to what she wants? I know she's still in love with me, but you know what...it's not going to work. Why can't this just end? I'm so tired of dealing with this. I need to get my life in order again, I'm sick of others being able to control me.

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Jul. 28th, 2005 | 02:57 am
mood: tiredtired

...I'm fucking tired. I'm surprised I didn't die while driving all the way from Sunrise. Gabe will be gone for 5 days, which sucks. Um, what else. Yea lady, if only there weren't people around...if only. Coming home to an empty house really sucks. There goes my mood...Blah, good night.

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I collect, I reject

Jul. 26th, 2005 | 02:13 pm
mood: lonelylonely

Alright, so this is how it feels to be single. I feel pretty fuckin' shitty. It seems like you give your all to something, and in the end, that person still takes it with them. Damn it, give me back myself, and you can keep yourself. I haven't been functioning properly the past few weeks. I think I need time to just sit down and have a talk with myself....Wait, why do I smell weed?? Ah, it's those 420 people next door...Anyways. My mind just jumps from one thing to another. I haven't had control of my thoughts, or my emotions in a while. I'm absolutely blank...I don't know whether to be mad, sad, hurt...or whatever. Like I was saying, I just need time to think about everything. I do know one thing I want though...and that will happen when the time is right. It's time to start off new, get a few things taken care of, and then move on to better things...I need to find a new job, get back into school, let go of a few past experiences, and make sure the people I have in my life now, stay with me. My friends are the only one's helping me get through this point in time. I've been in the company of such wonderful people. I lost one big part of my life, but at the same time, I've also gained so much. You win some, you lose some. Everything will eventually balance out in the end....Hopefully real soon.

I won't crack
on my way
and I can't turn back
I'm okay
I'm on track
on my way
and I can't turn back
I stayed
on this track
gone too far
and I can't come back
I stayed
on this track
lost my way
can't come back

You made me throw it all away
My morals left to decay
How many you betray
You've taken everything

Terrible Lie


When I tell you I love you, I truely mean it. This goes to the only 3 who actually read this. All for reasons alike, but some...different.

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Jul. 25th, 2005 | 10:08 am

I'm so furious right now. Why does she feel like she has the right to call me names, and tell me I'M a liar??? The past year and a half has been one big lie! If you're going to break up with someone, make sure you give them a VALID reason as to why you're doing it. Fuckin' selfish ass people...It's funny when she said "I wasn't gonna go out with my friends for a long time, but you ruined it by going out with yours last night"...BITCH, I NEVER get to hang out with my friends like I used to, because of YOU! I've been confined for almost 2 years! YOU even said it was weird of me for not going out, but now that I do, it's some big fucking problem...There's always something I don't do right, or something to bitch about. I forgot though, you're Miss Perfect. You fuck, I'm not the one who snorted coke and got arrested, I'm not the one who decided to get high every fucking night and act like a fucking moron, I'm not the one who ran off with someone's ex and fucked around with them, I'm not the one who snuck off with someone's best friend and talked shit behind the other person's back & I'm certainly not the one who broke up with someone 500 times for bullshit reasons. You'll regret everything and will crawl back AGAIN like every other time...This time I won't be dumb enough to take you back.

Ahh, ok...Breathe...

On a good note, I did have a great time last night, regardless of how many times she called to bitch at me. I was with great company, and I got the affection that I've been deprived of for a long time. To just sit there with someone you care about, and not have to say a word is just an amazing feeling...Especially when you've had a few to drink, haha...Ok jk jk...Umm, but yea. Ahh, silent conversations are wonderful...Not many people are capable of pulling it off...Alright I'll finish this up later...I've got something else to read. =)

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